In the last 24 hours, I have decided to delete my blog and quit writing. I can’t do it. I have no business being a writer, I’m posing and you folks are all better educated than I am and I was kidding myself.
In the last hour, after taking a long walk, I have a protagonist, and a solid plot outline for my novel. I’m also going to work on my memoir concurrently. I’m excited as hell.
WTF you ask? I hit the wall in the last day. Self doubt crept in and opened a can of whoop ass on my confidence. I couldn’t for the life of me figure out how to write fiction and resigned myself to plod along on a memoir. Then I just decided to quit altogether because it was a joke…I’m no writer.
It truly does take a village and this would not have happened if not for the inspiration and support of my friends in the blogging community here at WordPress….
Thank you all, even though I don’t really know any of you…your “likes” and your comments have kept me afloat…have kept the dream alive and gotten me over the first real hump of self-doubt.
How cool is that?
P.S. I promise I’m not Bi-Polar or on psych meds…some may argue I should be, but I’d like to believe every new writer shares this experience…at least it’s what keeps me out of the doctor’s office…
November 28th, 2012 at 20:06
Don’t give up. Keep trying it. It’s kind of like parenthood. One of the hardest things you’ll ever try to do, but so rewarding in the end.
November 28th, 2012 at 21:06
Thanks…great analogy. No worries, I’m pathetically stubborn.
November 29th, 2012 at 06:31
All those bloggers you’ve started to follow, if they’re being honest, should be blogging just as frequently about their failures and frustrations as they are their successes.
December 4th, 2012 at 05:56
Every now and then I pop in to see what is on your mind. When you are not being “political” I find your thoughts interesting. Anyway, I do think you have a talent in there somewhere. Writing is hard work and anyone who does it for a living will tell you that. I do not, so my perspective comes from others. However, I think as you mentioned in one post it is a building process, learning the craft, becoming a wordsmith, so to speak. I discovered a project that might interest you. It provides a platform for aspiring writers and helps develop your process. it is here. http://www.writingourwayhome.com/p/river-jan-12.html
I know a few people who are participating and thought you might want to look. If not, sorry if I presume. Best of luck. Ever consider short stories?
December 4th, 2012 at 08:58
Thanks…I actually do have a short story out now sitting in a juried competition…we shall see.
December 4th, 2012 at 12:05
Hope it works out. .