Clearly, I’m not Steve McQueen but I connect with the quote and the man (character) himself so much, I made it my Gravatar. Let me explain:
I’m a control freak. It’s what drove my success as a Paramedic and ultimately a Fire Captain in a previous life. I spent a lot of time preparing and studying and practicing my craft, so that in an emergency situation, when lives literally hung in the balance, I was ready…muscle memory they call it. There’s no shortcuts for that kind of skill.
So here’s the rub…if you’re not a control freak of my ilk, if you don’t put in the same hours I do to, I have a problem with that. In other words…I have a problem.
You see where I’m going with this. If you don’t live up to my high expectations, you are inferior and subject to my derision. Except for the small fact that that doesn’t seem to work in society. Not everyone shares my same values and work ethic. And here’s the real shocker…not everyone cares as much as I do. And guess what? I’m not all that!
It took me a long time and a lot of soul-searching brought on by some real tragedy, self-made and otherwise, in my life for me to realize I am not the center of the universe. You might laugh, but in all honesty I thought I was…and still do in some moments (muscle memory I’m sure LOL)…
I couldn’t figure out why I was so unhappy and why the people around me were such lazy idiots (I’m not recovered from this entirely…I invite you to drive with me on any given day). What I finally DID figure out was that this was not their problem…it was mine.
Back to the quote…it reminds me that I can only control one thing…ME. The Serenity Prayer is a great relief to me during these times. My workplace is filled with incompetence (as I see it) but at the end of the day, all I can truly affect are my actions and my responses to others. This is SO much easier said than done, but it’s something I truly do strive for every day. Sometimes successfully, but oftentimes not…progress not perfection.
What spurred this post was a response a gentlemen made on my post yesterday on faith…he kindly suggested that instead of Karma, I come to realize the joys of Jesus Christ and all the benefits that has to offer. Thank you very kindly sir, but I’m completely and wholly satisfied with my concept of God and wish to leave it at that. I appreciate your faith but am constantly amazed at others enthusiasm for sharing. If your faith is sound, I don’t believe you need to spread the Gospel…if I am destined to become Born Again…don’t you think God will make sure that happens on it’s own accord…again:
“Look, you work your side of the street and I’ll work mine”…thank God for this.